I want to be happy….
Sounds simple. Pretty basic. I mean, we all want to be happy. It is a universal thing. We all agree on it. So was is it so hard? Why aren’t I?
I have asked myself that question so many times and I am still nowhere close to a possible answer. My life isn’t bad. I am grateful for what I have. I am thankful for every person in my family even when they at their worst. I have no real struggle or issue. My parents don’t leave in distress and they never abandon me. I have friends that were pretty much made for me. I have a job that while it doesn’t pay well, it leaves me with a lot of free time and flexibility.
So what is it?
Why aren’t I happy?
I decided to stop asking myself that question and try to find out what would make me happy.
Maybe I am shooting down people’s suggestion and ideas too early! Maybe they have the answer!
Will being in a relationship being me happiness or will it just bring hassle and drama?
Will having more money make me relaxed or will my expenses increase as well, leaving me in this endless cycle of having barley enough?
Will developing my hobbies and talents give me a purpose or will it become a task that I have to do?
Will anything I do ever make me happy or will my mind and life find a way to sabotage any chances I get?